Weary Traveler

Sixteen days ago we set out for a two week road trip to see two of our nephews graduate and to see other friends and family as well. Mu husband thought this was too big of a trip for me, being only a few weeks after a very major surgery. But I was sure it would be fine. Yes, the riding in the car would be a little difficult, but other than that I would only be hanging out at family and friend's homes, what could be so hard about that? 

Well, as it turns out, a lot! I am completely exhausted! Both physically and emotionally. No matter how much rest I get I am just physically worn out, and I lost count of the number of emotional breakdowns I have had in the past couple of weeks. I am missing the comfort of home, and of routine, in my recuperation. The littlest things that I took for granted have become so difficult while on the road. Showers are the biggest. It is such a struggle to gather all my stuff together and have to take care of myself in strange bathrooms. I had three breakdowns just trying to take today's shower. Just resting is hard because I feel so guilty closing myself up in our bedroom away from our hosts and family that even when I do try to rest, I don't find any. And now I sit here awake at 5:22 am, after less than two hours of sleep. I just can't seem to get back to sleep after having been awakened by some kind of alarm going off for about 40 minutes a couple of hours ago. 

In just a few hours we leave for our 20+ hour drive home and I am not up to it. But there is no choice. My husband has to be back to work on Tuesday. It is times like this that I have to remember to go to the Lord and find my rest. 

While I look forward to getting home and continuing my recovery in the comfort of home, I know that saying goodbye will be so difficult. I hate goodbyes. Always have. In a few hours we will say goodbye again to my Great Uncle Danny and Great Aunt Barbara, not sure when or if we will get back to visit again, which makes it even harder. But again, I will remind myself to turn to the comfort of the Lord to see me through. 

God bless you today as you travel through life, and I pray you will look to Him for rest from whatever burdens you are carrying. 

Blessings,

Colleen